Where is God?

I think I mentioned in my last post about a patient that coded horribly last week. I thought that the bad things were going to be over. This precious little boy was waiting for a heart transplant. I thought that him coding was going to finally get him the heart that he so desperately needed. I just knew that any minute, we were going to get the wonderful news that a heart was on its way. That news never came. I got the call this morning that he is being taken off life support. I know that this precious boy has been through more than any of us...and he deserves to go see Jesus, but it doesn't make it any easier for those of us who took care of him and loved him and his wonderful family. I can't imagine how someone who doesn't believe in God would handle a situation like this...but I think it's just as hard for those of us who do believe. Why would God choose that little boy? Why didn't his heart miracle ever come? It's a hard thing to fathom that a loving God would choose to have a family go through this? Then, it hits....this little boy was a miracle, new heart or not. He had a family that loved God and loved him. He had friends. He had nurses who adored him. He was a blessing to us...and if that was the reason he was born, than God accomplished his purpose for this little one. It doesn't make it any easier for us, especially since we've had such a run of this kind of thing lately. There's a song by Casting Crowns that absolutely fits this situation. I heard it for the first time in concert a couple of months ago, and it's stuck with me. I put the actual song on my myspace page, if you're interested in hearing it. www.myspace.com/redheadramblings Otherwise, I found the lyrics, too. It's hard for me to understand God's ultimate plan, especially working in the medical field. Why do some make it and some don't? I know I shouldn't question what His plans are, but it still happens. This song reminds me that He is in control, and I still need to praise Him...even when it's at the worst.

"Praise You in the Storm" by Casting Crowns

I was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say “Amen”, and it’s still raining
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as You mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I’ll praise You in this storm
And I will life my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I’ve cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can’t find You
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth