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Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Adios 2008!

2008 has been quite the year. I guess I probably say that every year, but it doesn't make it any less true. It never ceases to amaze me how quickly the year goes by. It just seems like yesterday that I was attending the information class on gastric bypass and now I'm almost 130lbs lighter. I've gone from a BMI of over 45 to one that's almost within the "healthy" range of 20-25 (I'm at 25.2! Almost!). I've dropped more clothes sizes than I know what to do with. I've learned that water is the ultimate beverage and vegetables are not the devil. I haven't had caffeine or sugar since April, and shockingly, one can survive without both! :)

I've also learned who my real friends are. They're the ones who say how healthy I look now, but that I was always beautiful. They aren't intimidated or jealous of my weight loss because they know it hasn't been an easy road. They are the ones who called and visited me during my three hospital admissions this year. They remind me every day how blessed I am to have such a core group of fabulous friends.

I have an amazing family. I knew this already, but after the year I've had, I've come to realize how truly blessed I am. I have a mother who will take off a week from school to be with me after surgery...and who will drop everything to come stay with me while I'm hospitalized. I have a brother who will stop by my hospital room every day after work, even if it's just to watch TV with me. I have a sister in law, not even a blood relative, who came to see me daily and bring me things to do so I wouldn't get bored.

I've learned that being a patient in the hospital is one of the most frustrating experiences known to man. It's a completely powerless feeling, especially when you don't know WHAT is wrong with you. I'm supremely thankful for my fabulous surgeon and his gifted hands...for not only fixing me the first time, but taking out that blasted gallbladder that my body decided it didn't need.

I'm thankful for small blessings....like getting up and drinking a glass of water without throwing up. Like putting on pants that fit last week and realizing they are too big this week. Like walking into a patient's room and seeing their jaw drop because they haven't seen me in a few months.

I have a lot to be grateful for this year, and I hope I never cease to remember that. I am truly blessed.

Monday, December 29, 2008

On call insomniac!

It's currently 5:27AM and I've been awake and up since 2:46AM. I have no idea why I woke up wide awake and couldn't go back to sleep! It always seems to happen when I'm on call...which would be when I probably should get as much sleep as I possibly can in case of transplant! At least I was productive this morning! I've put away all my suitcases and Christmas presents. I've also cleaned off most of the kitchen counters and scrubbed down the bathtub! CRAZINESS!

This past week has been one for the record books. I have been off since the 19th, which has been lovely. Sadly, I have to go back this morning and I have absolutely no desire to do so. Last weekend, I spent quality time with my sister and her husband after their long drive from Virginia. We went over to my grandma's house in Fort Worth and took her to lunch. Then we spent quality time in a thrift store looking for costumes for our family's pirate themed murder mystery dinner theater. I found some GREAT and cheap stuff!

Monday, Jen, Kim, and I went for pedicures and introduced Kim to sushi! Delicious! :) She's normally NOT a foodie, so we thought she was pretty brave. Of course, she didn't eat anything raw...and I doubt she ever will...but it was a good effort.

Tuesday. Bad day. Terrible, no good, horrific day. One of my sweet little patients is now safely in the arms of Jesus. Enough said. After the horrid morning, Kim, Evan, and I trekked down to Grandma's house in Wimberley for the Christmas festivities.

The rest of the week was filled with family fun and games. The only downer was that my dad was sick the entire weekend with what he thought was just tummy troubles. After taking himself to the ER on Saturday night, turns out he has kidney stones. OUCHIE! He's still in quite a bit of pain.

This week will hopefully go by quickly. I'm on call and my co-worker is out the whole week. It should be interesting!

I'm sure I'll do some touching "Adios to 2008" post at a later date....but you'll have to stay posted for that one!

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Life aspirations!

Italicize all the things you've already accomplished in your life.
Bold the things you'd like to still be able to do!

1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars

3. Played in a band
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland
8. Held a praying mantis
9. Climbed a mountain
10. Sang a solo

11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you're not ill
24. Built a snow fort

25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo's David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris

51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater

55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason

64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle

79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Read the entire Bible
86. Visited the White House

87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox
89. Saved someone's life

90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee
100. Read an entire book in one day

Interesting. Is it just me or do most of my bolded items involve travel?

Friday, December 19, 2008

Picture tag!

Lisa tagged me...

Here's the deal:

1. Go to the place on your computer where you store all your pictures and open the 4th folder

2. Open the 4th picture.

3. Post the picture and give an explanation of what it is.

4. Tag 4 people.

DO NOT CHEAT!! You cannot edit or crop the picture!!

This is the post office in Vancouver. Of course, my picture wouldn't be interesting or anything. It would have been more fun if this picture was the one in the sauna...

I tag:
Kris K

Have a wonderful night!

Sunday, December 14, 2008

The nitty gritty truth

I stole this from a friend's blog. It's an article about being single. I think it's one of the best things I've read in awhile. I spent the evening with both single and married friends whom I've known for probably six years now? This group has had people marry, divorce, have babies, stay single...and yet we all still stay friends. I think this is very unusual, mostly because most of the time things get way different when people get married and move into that next phase of life.

Anyways, I really REALLY like this article. Enjoy.

What I'd like you to know: A Single Adult

The year I turned 30, my birthday happened to fall on Father’s Day. A few days before the combined event, I phoned my dad to tell him I wouldn’t make the three hour drive home to visit. I had just recently moved back to the city of my youthful stomping grounds after 3 years away, and I was the first of my friends to hit the big 3-0.

Dad graciously understood, and asked “So, how old are you this year?”

“Thirty.” I replied.

“Oh.” He sighed, and paused. “I never thought you would be an old maid.”

I know what you’re thinking. But coming from my dad, I wasn’t offended. I knew that in his generation, that was the plain truth. Moreover, I knew that he was really saying, “I can’t believe some man hasn’t snapped up my charming, smart and attractive daughter.”

Eight years later, I’m still not married, and still have no children. I am sure that many people I encounter see an old maid. Of course they don’t say it in as many words as my dad. They show it instead.

They show it when they say, “Not married? Oh, you must be picky.”

I hear it when others, incredulous, refuse to take it as fact. “Just kidding.” I want to say in such cases, “ I am married. Don’t worry. I’m normal.”

I think the inability to categorize me makes some people uncomfortable. If I were divorced, they could make sense of it. Were I a single mom, I’d find sympathy and compassion. But by admitting my single, never married, no-child status is akin to announcing there is something wrong with me. I’m reasonably attractive, funny and pass for intelligent, so people are only left to ponder my fatal flaws. Some people actually ask, “So what’s wrong with you?”

Our society sort of views marriage as a given. A rite of passage. When I read news accounts of a young woman or even a child who died tragically, her parents inevitably say “I’ll never walk her down the aisle on her wedding day. I’ll never hold her children.” It is assumed that everyone who was born will marry and have children. I assumed I would too. When it just doesn’t happen, knowing that it is expected of us only deepens the pain.

That is why it is so hurtful when it is suggested to a single person that they “must be picky.” As if we can just pick a guy and get married. After all, did you settle? Now you’re suggesting that you could have married just anyone. Would you have had as successful a marriage if you had ended up with one of your exes? As much as I long for marriage, I sure am glad I didn’t marry any of the men in my life so far.

That’s the trick about marriage as a goal. It’s not like learning to dance, or committing to losing weight. It doesn’t take will power to find a mate. It takes a mate. It takes a miracle. Oh, that I could just go to the store and pick one up!

True, single for some people is a choice. For those of us who truly desire marriage and children and family, it is not. Marriage is a vocation that two people agree to take on together. I can’t do it by myself. I learned, in just the last two months that I can’t make someone love me. No matter how much I love him, or how strong in faith he might be. Not even that our shared faith made us both stronger. No matter how happy we are together until all the Ifs and Buts step in.

And the simple fact of the matter is, I’ve never been asked.

That alone makes me question my womanhood and my desirability. It’s a very uncomfortable place. I am a woman who desperately desires motherhood. My clock is tocking not ticking. I am very aware that my best reproductive years are over.

What not to say

Please don’t remind a single woman that her chances for a healthy baby are diminishing every year she is over 30. But also, please do not try to encourage us with stories of women who successfully bore children well into their 50s. All of this is completely irrelevant to a woman without a husband or serious boyfriend.

While we’re on the topic, yes, I know adoption is an option. I am adopted myself and believe that adopted babies are indeed the best kind. If I were blessed with marriage, adoption would defiantly be a consideration. But adoption is as far out there as infertility treatments when there is no man in your life.

You’ll find him when you’re not looking

I’m never not looking. Yes, my life is full and happy. But I am a mother without a child. I am a wife without a husband. I want my other half. Think of the loss you would feel if your husband or child suddenly were not there. I feel, not daily, but often, that an important part of my life is missing.

And by the way… dating after age 30 is not fun. It is a chore, like scrubbing the bathtub but less rewarding. It’s hard to look forward to dinner and disappointment. I want to anticipate a nice evening, but this much experience has taught me what to look for in a man – and more often than not, it’s not there.

In the meantime, sometimes I just want to dote my pent-up motherhood on your kids. It’s probably terribly inappropriate, but I will snuggle your baby and sniff its’ head to soak up that sweet smell. I’ve been guilty of tickling and twirling a smiling baby until it spits up. Sorry. I will nosh on your toddlers’ chubby legs and lift his shirt to plant a raspberry, just so I can hear that throaty, from-the-gut baby giggle that makes my heart sing. If it’s no trouble, please just indulge me. (I promise not to do that to your husband.)

Seeing women my age or younger with kids in tow – can stir a pang of deep pain. I once called my church office to ask when Baptisms were scheduled, as I needed to avoid them. Second Sunday of the month, I would attend a different church just so I didn’t have to see the happy couples with their beautiful babies.

That’s another point. Church is no place for a single woman. Church is all about family. That’s why you see so few single adults there. It’s not that they no longer believe, the fact is they don’t feel welcome. When your pastor asks you reach out to share a blessing, do you turn to your family first? I stand there waiting for a hand to embrace.

I worry this writing might sound all bitter and lonely and sad. I am happy. I am blessed with an incredible network of friends. My family is amazing. I enjoy my single life to the best of my ability. People remind me that marriage is not easy. I remind them; neither is being single.

Oddly, Barb in last week’s post on Empty Nesting provided me a point to expound upon. She wrote:

“Life is a circle. You flow from one stage to the next. And with a little time, you become comfortable with the newest stage.” --Barb, A Chelsea Morning

For a perpetually single person, that’s not so. My life is a wandering squiggly line – darting in and out of other people’s circles. Everyone else is buzzing along on a predictable cycle but there is no circle of life in my world. There are no ‘stages’ for me to move through, save the aging process.

I am not Less Than

I realize I may sound contradictory – as I have already pointed out here that I feel a part of me is missing. But I am a whole person. Perhaps I have not yet realized that God intends for me to be alone, and that to Him I am complete and not in need of a husband. I’m still working on trusting God’s divine providence.

What I mean to emphasize is that you need not view me as pathetic and alone. I am not waiting for my life to begin. Marriage is not going to make my life worth living. My life is worthy now. I’m just a little lonely.

Invite me over to play with your kids while you tackle the laundry. Seriously.

Think about introducing me to someone. Don’t wait until you find the ‘perfect guy’ for me. It’s just nice to meet people. You never know who they might lead you to!

If you do make an introduction, don’t make a big fuss. Don’t tell either of us you’re setting it up. Just put us in the same room. If we’re interested, we’ll figure it out. But feel free to point out after the fact, that you introduced me to so-and-so if sparks did not fly.

Pray for single adults. There are ministries for single moms, working moms, elderly widows/widowers, and petitions for the sick. But when does society reach out to the single? Pray that your single friends might daily, feel the love of God and of their friends and neighbors in a tangible way.

Invite your single friends for a meal. We’ll help prepare. I attend my church’s weekly fish fry during Lent – even though I’m allergic to fish. My priest teased me until I explained at home, I have to eat alone.

Keep in touch with your single friends. They’re not out tearing it up and having orgies. We’re not out to steal your husband. Sometimes we just want to experience the hum of a household with a family. Look for things in common with single adults. We might not share your challenges, but we can still relate.

Completely loved this article. AMEN sister.

Friday, December 12, 2008

Guess I've been hiding!

Wow, I really haven't updated for awhile! Ah well, if something truly fabulous had happened, I probably would have gotten on here....so you can guess that nothing has! :)

The parade was SO MUCH FUN! I don't have any pictures of myself, still waiting for people to forward me their pictures. It was an amazing experience! I was able to get there much later than I usually do since I was a character! I put on my fabulous costume, and then felt HUGE! :) I guess I never realized how big those characters are meant to be. I had about a nectarine sized area I could see out of, which was completely freaky. Thankfully, the fabulous character escorts walked me out to the golf cart and then shoved me into the antique car. I know there was a child sitting next to me, but I couldn't tell you anything about them. I couldn't even SEE him! I sat waving for a solid hour, hearing children scream my character's name. I didn't even know anyone knew him! After the parade was over, I was thankful to get back to the safe area so I could rip that stupid character head off! Not being able to talk for all that time was torture.

This week really flew by! I had two sweet babies that I had to do all their transplant teaching this week. It's always more fun when it's not in English. Their going home makes my clinic more crazy. That's okay. I love when babies get new hearts, even if it makes more work for me.

Today I finished a 26 day streak on call. AWFUL! I've been on call since November 17th, but it's all good now...because I'm DONE! I will not be sleeping with any phones next to my bed, and hopefully, I'll sleep better. I've been having headaches this week, and I think it's because I don't sleep well.

Tomorrow, I'm hopefully going to do some Christmas shopping. I need to mail a few, and it's starting to get late in the month. I'm normally good and have at least the majority by now, but not so much this year.

Okay. Liberty and I are going to attempt to stay warm. I think it's only in the 40's here today! :)

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

I DID IT! :)

After three years of slaving away as a character escort at the Neiman Adolphus Children's Christmas parade, I am finally going to be an actual character! I get to be in the parade, too! :) I'm so excited! The costume will be SO hot and stinky, but I'll get to be in the action!

I'm going to be "Puddle", who is a pig from the apparently famous duo "Toot and Puddle". I've never been small enough to wear the costumes before and it's kinda surreal that I get to actually do it this year! I feel snazzy!

Here's a picture. Puddle is the one in overalls...

Tonight, I came home from the character meeting to find NO POWER in my house. Lovely. Apparently, the electric company has been sending notices to my OLD apartment. I guess I just paid the bills as they came in and didn't notice there wasn't one from them! Anyways, I'm using my computer on batteries and I tapped in to someone's unsecured network (I know, not smart!) so I could post this. Guess I should go save my battery now. I'm sure the electric company will love hearing from me at exactly 7:30AM when they open. I pity that poor customer service rep.

Have a great day!

Friday, November 28, 2008

Angry at the blog.

I've now spent an hour of my life attempting to put a new template on my blog...and not one of these horridly ugly blogger ones! I've struck out!

Stupid thing even erased all my blogs that I follow...so if you don't see your blog in my list, remind me to add it!

Does ANYONE know how to put fun templates on? I'm so frustrated!

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Fighting off the usual

It wouldn't be a fall/winter season if I didn't get sick at least once! More specifically, if I didn't get pneumonia and spend several days miserable and hacking! It came a little early this year seeing as it likes to come around February, but maybe this means I'll be free for the rest of the winter? One can hope. I started feeling the asthma act up last week and my doctor called me in the steroid pack for weenies. I felt better, but starting Saturday, felt the crud coming on again and worse. This time, it came with fever! Delightful!

I ended up going to the doctor on Monday who listened to my lungs and found some nice "dense" areas and started me on antibiotics and the "BIG GUNS" steroids. If you know me and have been reading for any amount of time, you know this is BAD news for my psyche. Steroid rages are pretty bad for me...ranging from insane emotional highs and lows, hot flashes, insomnia, and insane eating needs. Three hours after taking my first dose, I had already yelled at Liberty for sitting too close to me and then cried about it because I felt like a horrible mom. Welcome to my dramatic steroid world. Since then, I've mostly just had the hot flashes and insomnia, because let's be honest, I RARELY get hungry. If I do, it's most likely because I haven't eaten all day...which really isn't a good thing for me to attempt!

I feel SO much better now. I've still got the lovely cough, but that will be around for awhile.

Tomorrow I am headed to my grandma's house in Fort Worth for Thanksgiving goodies! It should be quite interesting to see what I'm able to eat. I'll probably try and steer away from poultry (stupid aversion!), but I don't CARE what it does to Betty...I WILL be having some of my mother's dressing. YUM. I won't be eating dessert, so it will all even out! :) Friday...shopping! Can't WAIT to see the ads in the paper tomorrow and plan out my attack.

I hope you and your family have a wonderful and safe Thanksgiving weekend!

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Another jet setting experience...

I think my travel days are numbered for the time being! I went to Houston on Thursday afternoon for a conference on pediatric mechanical hearts. This company paid for all of us to attend a day of lectures and a fancy dinner! Guess I wasn't gonna say no to that! They flew me to Houston, picked me up in a LIMO (where I actually had a driver carrying a sign with my name on it!), and took me to the Woodlands Resort and Conference Center. It was really a nice place, very rustic and woodsy....hence being in the WOODlands! :) They did a really nice dinner (crab AND filet mignon! YUM!) and sent us off to bed. I got up early the next morning and spent the day with my favorite surgeon in lectures. Yippee. She and I ended up on the same flight home yesterday. It was a REALLY quick trip!

After I got home, I grabbed the puppies and we went to Michael and Jennifer's house. The pups played with their cousins whilst the three of us went to dinner. After dinner, we stopped by my friend's house to see the puppy she was puppy sitting. Of course, the fact that it was a DOXIE pup didn't hurt at ALL! Such a cute little thing! It made me remember how small Liberty was when I brought her home. Oliver was small too, but never that small!

Today, I haven't done much. I did go grocery shopping, got my mail, and the Sears guy came and fixed my washing machine. I did have the attempt to be productive and changed my sheets...and then Oliver promptly threw up on them. Lovely. I have yet to replace the sheet.

Can you EVEN believe that Thanksgiving is next Thursday? It should be an interesting one...especially since it will be the first one where I haven't seen either of my siblings for the day. It's okay...I get to have them BOTH at Christmas, which will be just DANDY!

After next week, it all goes CRAZY from there...like it does every year! I'm going to be in the Children's Christmas Parade again, but I'm not sure exactly as what! Since I'm shrinking, I did tell the guy I would be an actual character this year, instead of just the person who leads them around! I don't know if I'll actually get to do it, but I will still be a character escort if they need me to! It will be my fourth year to do it. I've already found out that one of my FAVORITE transplant patients was asked to be in it this year, so I know I'll get to see her!

Okay, enough rambling. Keep my pitiful lungs in your prayers...the weather changes are creating havoc on their wee frailness. I've already done steroid run last week, and I think I might be headed towards another one if I can't get my lungs to open. Right now, I'm just doing a bunch of dry hacking. It's so attractive. :)

Happy weekend!

Sunday, November 16, 2008

St. Louis adventures!

I am happily home! I spent the weekend in St. Louis at a transplant certification review course...whoopee! :) I hope to be taking this test in the next few months and I think the course was good for me...at least one would hope!

I flew in Friday night in some sort of winter freeze watch. It was delightful! Thankfully, it was only rain, not ice! I got to the hotel, only to find out that my room had been switched to two doubles. Why do I need two beds? I called to see if there was a king bed room available, but only smoking rooms were free. ICK! I resigned myself to the fact that I would just pick a bed. The front desk guy called a few minutes later and said he had a new room for me! I went and got my new key...to my SUITE! Wow! Apparently, the front desk guy felt sorry for me and gave me a bigger room! How delightful! I dragged my stuff all over the hotel, but in the end, it was worth it! I ate dinner and went to bed LATE...which was stupid because I had to be up early the next day!

Saturday, I had the class ALL DAY. Yawn. There were some parts that I was exceptionally bored, but some of the classes were quite good. That night, Jennifer came and picked me up! She was in St. Louis visiting her family and busted me out of the hotel for the night! I ate dinner with them, then she and her brother and I watched movies the rest of the night until I had to go back to the hotel. The only thing that was crazy was I had the WORST stomach issues I ever have had...not quite sure yet what caused it, but I think it might have been some ranch dressing. Angry Betty!

Today, I tried to sleep late, but I couldn't. Sadness :( I got on the plane, got back to Dallas earlier than I thought, picked up Lib, and came home. Now I'm getting ready for bed, sad at the thought of going back on call tomorrow after three weeks of being free. I have another trip this weekend...which is just seeming to be typical after two weekends in a row of travel. I'm going to Houston for a ventricular assist device seminar. Thankfully, I am only gone Thursday night and part of Friday. I do get to stay in some fancy "Woodlands Resort"...so that should be interesting. I'm probably going to be happy to not go anywhere for awhile after that.

I'm so addicted to Food Network. It's just sad. If I was a housewife, this channel would be so bad for me. I'd probably spend the entire day watching it, and when I wasn't watching it, I'd be realizing how UN-food networky I am. It's all good...some people can cook, some can not. I will gladly say that I am in the "not" category. I DID make some fabulous green vegetable curry tonight! It tastes REALLY good and I'm excited to have it for the next five meals! I split it up into wee containers so I have portion control...not that this is an issue! Last week, I made my mother's modified "porcupine meatball" recipe. YUM-O! (Oh dear, another Food Network reference!) I used ground buffalo, cream of mushroom soup, and water chestnuts instad of rice. I have one tiny container left and it is DELIGHTFUL!

Okay. Guess I should head to bed. I'd like to be able to take a day off this week because I had today off, but I don't think that's gonna happen. I hope your week is wonderful!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Wedding weekend!

I was in a wedding this weekend for my beautiful friend Trena! She and I went to Honduras together this past February and she works in the Cardiac ICU. She always ends up taking care of my sweet transplant babies!

The bridesmaids and Trena the night before...at "Prime Cut Steakhouse". This was before the wild country dancing broke out...you can be assured I was sitting and hiding during that!

Crazy candid of me!

My friend Amanda and I. Amanda and I lived in the same apt complex until she bought a house and I moved here. She, Trena, and I all went to Honduras!

Trena and I!

She got married in Nocona, Texas on a ranch...so far out in the country! Let's just say that a donkey (yes, there actually was one!) started braying in the middle of the vows! SO hilarious!

This week has been busy already, but isn't that normal for me? One of my sweet kids is getting a heart today! SO precious! That will make the rest of the week exciting! I've also got plans to go to St. Louis on Friday for a review course for my transplant certification test. Ironically, my sister in law, Jennifer, who is FROM there, will be there this weekend too! CRAZY! I think she has taken pity on me and is going to come get me from the FABULOUS St. Louis Airport Hilton on Saturday night so I don't have to be bored in the room!

Ah well, it wouldn't be my life if it wasn't busy, right? Hope your week is going well!

Saturday, November 01, 2008

A funny LU memory...

I think I was in "Introduction to Philosophy". It was my first experience in a Dr Batts class. For those of you who attended LU, you know all about the CRAZINESS of a Batts class. The man LOVES memorization. His tests are like 10 pages long, single spaced, 12 pt font...all complete regurgitation. Yes, there are essays involved, but 85% of the test requires you to spit out everything he's talked about for the last month or so.

It was a jolly October 31st...Halloween to everyone in the class, except Dr Batts. He walked in wearing his graduation robes (which are more hilarious than any other professors...mostly because his mortar board is all poofy and not flat), proclaimed it "Reformation Day", and then gave us a talk on Martin Luther and the hanging of the 95 Theses on a church. He then passed out copies of "A Mighty Fortress is our God" and made us sing.

I don't remember one single thing about philosophy, but I will always remember that October 31st is also Reformation Day. Thanks Dr Batts!

Monday, October 27, 2008

500th post!

Huh. Apparently, I've been under the impression 500 times that people want to read my ramblings! Ah well, if they didn't, why do they keep coming back? These are the questions!

On to the delightfulness of the week! Right now, I'm sitting in Michael and Jennifer's house, bundled up in a blanket and surrounded by four happy puppies. Liberty is buried under the blanket, smushed up right next to my leg. Oliver is on my right side, happily shredding a tennis ball. Every once in awhile, he puts his head up and chews the ball in the air. He's SO bizarre. Sam, the older and wiser terrier, is carefully watching for Oliver to look away so he can steal the tennis ball. Max, the younger and fatter terrier (I call him whale baby), has left the pile o' puppies to go investigate why the living room curtains just fell down. It's most likely because Oliver just threw himself into the window whilst chasing the aformentioned shredded tennis ball.

Michael and Jennifer are off cruising the Carribean this week....and I am here holding down the fort in the freezing weather. Okay, for you east coast readers, it's not really cold...but it's cold for a Texas October! It's supposed to get down towards freezing tonight. Thank goodness for heaters! And warm dogs to sleep in the bed with me! Anyways, I decided it was better for my sanity to bring Lib and Ollie here to play in the yard, rather than bring the other two to the apartment. So far, it's a wise choice. The pups LOVE the yard and Oliver gets to kick squirrel butt on a daily basis.

**Update** Oliver has grown tired of shredding yellow fuzz all about and is now content to lay with the ball. Max has come to sit on my left side. Now I'm definitely not cold.

I planned a vacation this week! I'm SO SO SO excited! On April 25th, I will be flying to Ft. Lauderdale and going on a CRUISE! I've been excited to go on another one since I got back from my last one, almost four years ago. Now I just have to start the saving. I figure that Betty will need a one year anniversary present!

Okay, guess i should go dig up the warm blankets. I have no warm clothes that fit, so I have to layer up with blankets. Sadly, I'm not supposed to be bundled up at work...so I spend the day in a fleece jacket, which is OH so unprofessional. Ah well...guess I'm gonna have to break down and go find warm clothes at Goodwill or Salvation Army! Maybe I can afford that.

Anyways...much love from the herd here! Stay warm!

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Why did the chicken....?

Okay, I stole this from my friend Chris (thanks!), mostly because I couldn't stop laughing! It doesn't matter who you've decided to vote for...this makes fun of everyone! Hilarious!

Why did the chicken cross the road?

SARAH PALIN: Before it got to the other side, I shot the chicken, cleaned and dressed it, and had chicken burgers for lunch.

BARACK OBAMA: The chicken crossed the road because it was time for a change! The chicken wanted change!

JOHN MC CAIN: My friends, that chicken crossed the road because he recognized the need to engage in cooperation and dialogue with all the chickens on the other side of the road.

HILLARY CLINTON: When I was First Lady, I personally helped that little chicken to cross the road. This experience makes me uniquely qualified to ensure right from Day One that every chicken in this country gets the chance it deserves to cross the road. But then, this really isn’t about me.

GEORGE W. BUSH: We don’t really care why the chicken crossed the road. We just want to know if the chicken is on our side of the road, or not. The chicken is either against us, or for us. There is no middle ground here.

DICK CHENEY: Where’s my gun?

COLIN POWELL: Now to the left of the screen, you can clearly see the satellite image of the chicken crossing the road.

BILL CLINTON: I did not cross the road with that chicken. What is your definition of chicken?

AL GORE: I invented the chicken.

JOHN KERRY: Although I voted to let the chicken cross the road, I am now against it! It was the wrong road to cross, and I was misled about the chicken’s intentions. I am not for it now and will remain against it.

AL SHARPTON: Why are all the chickens white? We need some black chickens.

DR. PHIL: The problem we have here is that this chicken doesn’t realize that he must first deal with the problem on this side of the road before it goes after the problem on the other side of the road. What we need to do is help him realize how stupid he’s acting by not taking on his current problems before adding new problems.

OPRAH: Well, I understand that the chicken is having problems, which is why he wants to cross this road so bad. So instead of having the chicken learn from his mistakes and take falls, which is a part of life, I’m going to give this chicken a car so that he can just drive across the road and not live his life like the rest of the chickens.

ANDERSON COOPER, CNN: We have reason to believe there is a chicken, but we have not yet been allowed access to the other side of the road.

NANCY GRACE: That chicken crossed the road because he’s guilty! You can see it in his eyes and the way he walks.

PAT BUCHANAN: To steal the job of a decent, hardworking American.

MARTHA STEWART: No one called me to warn me which way that chicken was going. I had a standing order at the Farmer’s Market to sell my eggs when the price dropped to a certain level. No little bird gave me any insider information.

DR SEUSS: Did the chicken cross the road? Did he cross it with a toad? Yes, the chicken crossed the road, but why it crossed I’ve not been told.

ERNEST HEMINGWAY: To die in the rain, alone.

GRANDPA: In my day we didn’t ask why the chicken crossed the road. Somebody told us the chicken crossed the road, and that was good enough.

BARBARA WALTERS: Isn’t that interesting? In a few moments, we will be listening to the chicken tell, for the first time, the heart- warming story of how it experienced a serious case of molting, and went on to accomplish its lifelong dream of crossing the road.

ARISTOTLE: It is the nature of chickens to cross the road.

JOHN LENNON: Imagine all the chickens in the world crossing roads together, in peace.

BILL GATES: I have just released eChicken 2008, which will not only cross roads, but will lay eggs, file your important documents, and balance your checkbook. Internet Explorer is an integral part of eChicken 2008. This new platform is much more stable and will never crash or need to be rebooted.

ALBERT EINSTEIN: Did the chicken really cross the road, or did the road move beneath the chicken?

COLONEL SANDERS: Did I miss one?

Saturday, October 18, 2008


WOWSERS. What a 72 hours I have had!

Thursday was Boss Day. I got up nice and early to make a delightful breakfast casserole for the brunch we were having. While it was cooking, I decided to take the dogs out. I came back into the house to hear my phone ringing. It was my co-worker...which was odd because she was supposed to be off the next two days. When I called her back, she told me there was a really good heart offer for one of our kiddos. She was off and wanted to know if I would take care of the transplant. I'm sure she'd say now that she "offered" to come in, but it was one of those half hearted pathetic offers. She was technically on call, and if I had known what was to happen, I would have let her. This transplant was going to be extremely high risk and I was NOT excited about doing it.

I spent the day on the phone with pretty much what seemed like the entire world. I got the transplant set up and we headed to the operating room at 8PM. God was truly watching out for this precious little one because all the bad and horrid things that could have happened didn't! About 3/4 of the way through the transplant, we got an offer for one of our kids that's been waiting about 5 months at the top of the list. It was a GREAT heart, so we accepted that one too! Our first kiddo came out of the OR about 4:30AM and the next one went in at 9AM. I didn't have time to get a nap or anything because there was a bunch of drama with the donor hospital for the 2nd heart. Thankfully, I had some buddies in the OR for the 2nd one, so I at least had someone to speak to! We got out of the OR at 8:30PM and I FINALLY headed home. My puppies were so happy to see me!

It was 38 hours without sleep, but TWO sweet kids got new hearts in less than 24 hours! Last time I checked, they were both doing amazingly well!

Needless to say, I am exhausted. I slept 11 hours last night and 3 more this afternoon. My entire body hurts, but hopefully it will feel better with more sleep.

Off to bed....hooray!

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

And it beats on...

What beats on? Well, hopefully my heart does! :)

This week has been busy, but I guess that's a good thing. We haven't done any transplants at work, but then again, I'm not currently on call. I go back on call Friday morning. Until then, I'll happily sleep without the host of phones and pagers on my nightstand. I'm alone the rest of the week, so I'm sure there will be about fifteen kids who need stuff ALL at the same time! Most of the time, I prefer to be alone instead of dealing with the daily drama! Today, I went to lunch with my favorite surgeon, which was a nice break in the middle of the clinic day madness!

The weather is AMAZING! I don't particularly care for the rain, but the fact that it is bringing cooler temperatures is phenomenal! It's so wonderful to go to sleep hearing the fountain outside and bundling up in my duvet for warmth! It's surprising I'm still cold, with all the dogs in my bed!

I got offered a new job this week! The director of the transplant program offered me the nurse manager position. When I got my bachelor's in nursing, I didn't ever intend to use it for management...it's just not my style. I absolutely love the interaction with the patients and their families and I'm not ready to give that up. Once I mentioned the offer to one of my cardiologists and my surgeon, I was told that I will NOT be abandoning them for management. It's nice to feel needed and loved! I am extremely flattered, and told my director "thanks, but no thanks". He completely understood and said I was the only person in the department he offered it to. Guess that means I have the management skills, even if I don't want to use them right now.

I'm currently cooking (yes, GASP!) something for the Boss day brunch tomorrow. I'm attempting to get as much of it ready tonight in order to just throw it together tomorrow morning and climb right back into my little bed whilst it cooks. So far, I've cooked bacon and sauteed green peppers and onions. I have SKILLS! :) Since the brunch starts at 9AM, I'm just gonna go in a little late so it can stay nice and warm, right out of the happy oven. It's nice to live so close to work!

I also have to leave early tomorrow for a stupid nerve test on my legs. Remember the jelly legs? Yep, they are STILL around...although not as bad as they were. What really worries me now is that I have strips of numbness and I don't understand why I'm still weak. Today, while taking the puppies outside, I completely missed a step and fell flat on my face....so attractive! I almost drove myself to ER on account of the swollen wrist, but hopefully the swelling will go down and I'll have just sprained it nicely. I am such a klutz.

Last night, my aunt and I went out to dinner at the Four Seasons! WOW was that an experience! I never get to go to those kinds of places, but we decided to just do an appetizer meal. We had divine seared ahi and some lobster yumminess. I also had a glass of phenomenal red wine. I have to be SO careful with wine...one sip too many and I'm pretty much ready to make inappropriate choices! Guess that's my reason not to drink at all! :)

Okay, enough rambling. Better go finish prepping my breakfast casserole! :)

Sunday, October 12, 2008


Not to steal a line from one of my all time favorite shows, Grey's Anatomy....but SERIOUSLY? Is it even possible? Are people really REALLY that afraid to say what they are feeling that they have to rely on excuses? What the heck? I nearly ALWAYS say exactly what I am thinking...or at least I try to. This is ridiculous.

Cryptic, huh? :)

Sunday, September 28, 2008

A blessing

Today, I went to a family reunion. It was for my great grandma's (on my mother's side) family. This reunion takes place every year, but we usually don't go. This year, I kept getting the pressure from EVERYONE to go! I couldn't figure out why this year was something special!

If you have spent any time with my family, you know that my mother has three sisters that are just as crazy as she is....and as I am, I guess! One of my aunts has been separated from us for quite some time. In fact, the last time all four girls were together was my grandpa's funeral in 1996. Thankfully, this aunt decided to come back to the family reunion and see everyone! It was amazing to see her...and I completely think it was one of the hardest things to do after being gone for so many years! Hooray for her! I hope she continues to stay involved.

I had a great time with my crazy family, as always. I continue to be blown away by people who don't have the great relationship with their families as I do with mine. Even though we were just together for a few hours, I think it was absolutely worth it!

Yesterday, I went to the FAIR! Oh, it's Fair time again! Michael, Jennifer, and I tried a host of fair foods....from Chicken Fried Bacon...to corn dogs (always yum!)...and my favorite....deep fried grilled cheese! Delightful! I only did one or two bites of the food, and my stomach grumbled a bit, but no disasterous results! I don't like to tempt fate with the stomach, but I figured it was the fair, and NOT something I plan on duplicating on a daily basis.

Tomorrow...back to work...ALONE! :) I'm alone at work for the first three days, so it should be quite interesting...as always. It's either feast or famine...part of me hopes for famine! :)

Ok. Must do laundry. ICK!

Monday, September 22, 2008

The big one!

Guess you've figured out how much weight I've lost in the last five months! INSANITY!

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Back from vacation!

Sadly, I've returned from my fabulous vacation! Even though I had one less day in the Pacific Northwest, I still had an amazing adventure! I walked SO much in those six days! Here's a run-down of my experiences!

Sunday-Up bright and early. My wonderful brother took me to the airport before the sun came up. My flight was uneventful, thankfully! A short layover in New Mexico...then on to Seattle! Tammy and her mom (who was visiting too!) picked me up at the airport and we headed off on a waterfall discovery adventure. We went to three different waterfalls and hiked A LOT! Remember, I still have jelly legs! :) I actually was pretty impressed with myself! We wandered home, through the gorgeous mountain ranges!

Monday-my birthday! Happy 31 to me! We took Tam's mom to the airport and went off to a Seattle landmark...the Pike's street market! The fish throwers were there in full force, throwing giant salmon and halibuts! Hilarious! I absolutely salivated over all the fresh produce and flowers for sale, sadly wishing it could come home with me! We ate lunch at a great crab house right on the water...clams and mussels! YUM! We got pedicures, relaxed for awhile, and then headed out for dinner. Dinner was a great seafood restaurant on the lake. It gets about 20 kinds of fresh, never frozen seafood daily! I had some delighful ahi and my first experience with wine. Let's just say, I'm pretty fun after MUCH less than I used to be! Thankfully, the cowboy game was on and I was able to cheer happily and without reservation! No eagles fans in the whole place!

Tuesday-Space Needle! We walked over to the Seattle Center (the site of the Seattle world's fair!) and I did my most touristy adventure 600 feet up to the top of the needle. It was an absolutely beautiful day and my pictures turned out GREAT! We walked around the Seattle Center for a while after that and had a great picnic lunch sitting by this enormous fountain. All the water was choreographed to music and it was a great thing to watch! We were in the hot (hot for Seattle!) sunshine, and I actually got a sunburn! Go me! Afterwards, we walked back to Tam's apartment and went to see The Women...cute, but at times depressing!

Wednesday-off to Canada! We headed out in the morning, the first gray day outside since I'd come to Seattle! Crossing the border was only about a 5 minute adventure! Hooray for us! Guess I didn't look threatening. We made it to our hotel about oneish. The nice people let us check in early! We walked to Yaletown, a big restaurant district, to find some lunch. Afterwards, we walked around to get our bearings and find some tourist information. We ended up finding out about a bus that had 23 stops throughout the city. There was an additional pass that included five of the biggest Vancouver attractions. We decided that was the best plan and went to bed kinda early to prepare for the busy day!

Thursday-the walking begins! We caught the bus around 9:30 and headed off to the Vancouver lookout...basically the equivalent of the Space Needle. Afterwards, we headed to Stanley Park, a 1000acre park at the tip of downtown. It's absolutely beautiful! It houses the Vancouver Aquarium, home to a three month old baby beluga whale! They also have some dolphins, sharks, turtles, sea otters, sea lions, and lots of fish...but the highlight was the precious beluga! They have an outside viewing area and an underwater viewing area as well. After we were done at the aquarium, we decided to walk to the IMAX instead of riding the bus because brilliant Stephanie thought it was at 5pm. We HAULED across the city only to find out that the next show was at 6, and it wasn't even the one we wanted to see! We ended up going to a pub for some dinner and waiting until 7 for the 3D IMAX. Afterwards, we took a cab home because we were exhausted and tired of walking!

Friday-the adventure ends. We got up early again, but the buses were running WAY late! I think it was almost 45 minutes off schedule! We went first to Chinatown to the Classical Chinese Gardens. It was very pretty, but not something I would have paid extra for. Afterwards, we rode the bus back to our hotel, stopping along the way to grab some food at a great French restaurant. We headed off to the Capilano Suspension Bridge in North Vancouver. It was CRAZY! The bridge never stops moving! The gorge is wide enough to let two 747's side by side through the ravine without touching wing tips! Nuts! On the other side of the canyon, there was lots of hiking and roaming around. After spending about three hours there, we were pretty exhausted and decided to head back to Seattle. We got in the car at 5pm. By 6, we were on the other side of Vancouver. At 6:46PM, we got to the US/Canadian border. At 9:20, we were finally into the USA! Two and a half hours to get across the border is RIDICULOUS! We got back to Seattle about 11PM. I think I completely collapsed into the bed at that point!

Saturday-flying home. Not much to do...except get on the plane. My flight home was uneventful. Michael picked me up at the airport, with Liberty in tow. I slept in my own bed!

There's my trip in a nutshell! Well, I'm pretty verbose, so I guess not QUITE a nutshell! I posted a whole bunch of pictures on Facebook, but if you don't have access to that, here's the link to the album.


I go back to work tomorrow, not happily at ALL. I'd much rather stay off work for another week. Thanks for reading!

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Impact of Ike

My parents live outside Houston, off I-45, about 45 minutes from Galveston. Even though both of them had off work since Thursday, they decided to stay and weather the storm and protect their turf. I talked to them several times yesterday, the last time being about 9pm, when the wind had gotten too strong for Jack to go outside anymore.

I also talked to them this morning, after the storm had passed through. They currently have no power (lost it about 2AM), have no fence, and have tons of tree branches EVERYWHERE! They have some water damage in one of the bathrooms and their street is flooded...but they are safe and alive! They have food and water, and thankfully, their cellphones both still work! My dad has wired one of the TV's to a car battery so they can keep up with what's going on around town. Jack's mad because he can't roam the backyard freely.

I should have been in Seattle already, but Southwest Airlines got freaked out and cancelled a lot of flights this morning. The weather here in Dallas is just now starting to get interesting, but they claim "dangerous crosswinds" as their cancellation reason. Originally, they closed the airport until Monday morning. I had to reschedule my trip until then, and was quite angry about it. Once we heard the majority of the storm was going to miss Dallas, I started calling Southwest hourly to see if I could get out earlier than Monday. The first few times, I was still told the airport was closed until Monday. FINALLY, I was told that they had openings on a flight tomorrow, so I begged and pleaded! Normally, you're only supposed to have one switch for free, but I threw out the "Monday's my birthday" card, and was able to convince them! SO, tomorrow morning, I'll fly out, only losing 24 hours of my vacation!

Liberty is lounging around, getting freaked out by the wind noises in the hallway. I guess having a day to relax on this side of the trip probably isn't such a bad idea...it gives me a chance to pack smartly, instead of throwing crap in a bag...which was the plan!

So, if you think about it today, please say a prayer for my parents and their lack of power...and all the other families in Houston/Galveston who are experiencing loss today.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

SO SO ready!

I am going on vacation in TWO days. I am so excited I almost can't see straight! I haven't been on a true vacation in over two years. Being off for surgery doesn't count. Going to Honduras for paid slave labor doesn't count. This is a true, I'm not gonna think about the hospital vacation!

My friend Tammy is a travel nurse. She roams around the country in fabulous exotic places, doing fabulous nursing things. Right now, she's in Seattle...which is a place I've never been! I decided that I needed to go visit her while she's in one of these fabulous places that I haven't been! I leave on Saturday and return the following Saturday. I'm actually going to be there for my birthday, so that should be fun! During the time I'm there, we're also going to go up to Vancouver, which I hear is beautiful! Exciting!

Work has been crazy, life here at the house has been crazy. Too much craziness! I'm ready to be on vacation and not think about it! I've been on a lot of call recently with very little sleep...which is not my favorite thing. If I am gonna not have sleep, I'd rather be having fun instead of being tortured at work! As long as I can go through tomorrow morning at 7AM, I'm FREE! Whoo hoo! :)

Saturday, September 06, 2008

The klutz returns...

I am RETARDED. I think if I went back and looked at how many of my blog entries involve me falling down and/or injuring myself, I'd be amazed. Today was no exception. I went to my "old" apartment to finish getting some boxes out of the garage. While carrying one box to my car, I completely tripped over a concrete bar on the floor of the garage and decided to say hello to the concrete! Aside from a skinned knee, elbow, and bruised hip, I've survived unscathed! :)

I laugh at myself when this kind of stuff happens because I am ALWAYS on my mother to be careful. I don't let her get on ladders or ride scooters...because she's accident prone. I'm beginning to think that the older I get, the more I become like her, in more ways than one! Thankfully, I still have some meds from my surgery left over, so I was able to help the pain go away. It stinks not being able to take ibuprofen! ARG!

This week, I have found a new food to love. I've become addicted to Morningstar farms Asian Veggie Patties. They are divine. I've only really liked meatless patties and things for the last few years. Sometimes, they are too full of rice and other fillers. These patties are almost all veggies...carrots, water chestnuts, bamboo shoots....YUM! It's still so wonderful to be able to actually EAT and not get sick! I think the hardest part of this journey is still waiting a 1/2 hour to be able to drink after I eat! Ah well, I'm starting to get used to it.

Okay, it's Saturday afternoon, and I am going to NAP. I'm very VERY excited about this. Perhaps it's the meds making me slightly sleepy...but I care not. This week has been BUSY with lots of late nights...and now I get to sleep! :)

Monday, September 01, 2008

My new apartment!

Here are some pictures of the new place!!

Sunday, August 31, 2008

All moved!

I'm here! I made it! And the boxes are GONE!

I am safe and sound in my new apartment, literally three minutes from work. If I go walk Liberty, I can see the looming Children's Medical Center sign. If I go to the parking garage, I have the most beautiful view of downtown. From inside my apartment, I see the pool and the palm trees surrounding it. It's a very tranquil existance.

The movers (yep, I sprung for movers. I have very little I'll put out money for, but that is one of them!) came yesterday morning about 8:20AM and were done just after 11AM. My parents helped by cleaning the old apartment so I can get my pet deposit back! Michael and Jennifer came over around 1 to help get rid of boxes. I am actually very humbled to say that the boxes are gone! We got everything unpacked and the house actually appears mostly livable! That's not to say there isn't clutter, but it's MUCH better than I anticipated! I'm just one of those people that needs to get as much unpacked in the beginning or I'll put it off and it might stay that way for months! The cable guy came yesterday afternoon, ending my seven hours living in fear that I might get a donor call that needed a response. I'm having issues with the wireless, but as long as it works with a cord in place, I will do without wireless for the moment!

Okay, I should probably get moving. Liberty is adjusting to the new place, mostly by barking. She'll get over it.

Have a wonderful week and a relaxing Labor Day! I sure hope mine is!

Thursday, August 28, 2008

The end of the packing nears....

Oh, I am so tired of packing. Tired Tired Tired. I'm getting so close to that end point, but I'm at a tough stage. There's stuff all over that needs to be packed, but by this time, there's not going to be a good place to put it. It's gonna all end up in one box in a big jumbled mess. If you look at my apartment, there's lots of boxes strewn about, but also clutter...which makes it seem like I haven't packed at all! ARG! All I know is that I want to stop packing, but I can't. I'm moving in 36 hours!

My parents are coming tomorrow to assist in the moving fun. They should get here in the evening, just in time to assist in the fun of taking down pictures and puttying nail holes. Yippee! It will be wonderful to have someone help with putting up curtains, hooking up the electronic, and giving me opinions on where things should go.

Oliver had to go to Becca's two days early because the poor little man got sick. Liberty was sick over the weekend and I believe Ollie got the sickness two days later. He's doing much better now, but I couldn't stand another day of cleaning the carpet after "accidents", even though the poor boy couldn't help it. Liberty is coping pretty well with the stress of the move, which she doesn't normally do. I took her to the new apartment today to sniff around and explore. She sniffed around and then sat in the corner and wagged her tail. Silly thing.

Okay, I should probably go throw all the clutter into one box and get it off my counter. One sweeping motion is all it should take!

Friday, August 22, 2008

What a week!

Last Saturday, I started having problems with my computer. It started running extremely slowly and was generally misbehaving. Sunday afternoon, it stopped running all together! Retarded piece of crap! I ended up taking it to "Geek Squad" (insert laughter here!) for them to run diagnostics and back up all my data so I would hopefully not lose the over 2000 pictures I have! I guess it was a good time for it to crash because I am thankfully not on call this week! Well, five days and a lot of money later, I have a new computer. Let's just say my hard drive was fried, and in crunching the numbers, it was a better deal to get a new one than to fix the over five year old one. Thank you SO much to my parents for the early birthday present! I am so grateful that they stepped up in my time of crisis.

I am moving NEXT WEEKEND! AAHHHH!!! I still have stuff to pack, but a whole weekend to get it done. I'm absolutely tired of living out of boxes and hopefully I'll be motivated to unpack once I'm moved. The dogs are starting to go slightly crazy as well.

Work has been nuts this week, but really, when is it not? My co-worker has almost driven me clear over the edge this week, and I think I might have strangled her today if she had not needed to "get out of here early" (of course, while there was a new kid who needed evaluating and another one who needed to be admitted). My goal each day starts out by saying to myself "I will not strangle her today" and so far, I've been successful! :)

As you can see by my ticker, I'm up to a ridiculous 86lb weight loss! That's NUTS! I feel good, except for the lingering jelly legs. I'm eating lots of veggies and trying to cram down as much protein as I possibly can. It's SO much better than the days where water made me vomit. I am very thankful.

Okay, I'm certain there's a box that needs packing. And I don't think I've eaten dinner yet. Hmmm, guess I should go do that!

Friday, August 15, 2008

How close was THAT?

Is Michael Phelps even HUMAN? Every time I see him, I am more amazed. He is such a beautiful swimmer. This last race was INSANE! I'm certainly glad that I'm not an official. Wowsers. He's phenomenal.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Oh, the Olympics!

Is it just me, or is EVERYONE sleep deprived during the Olympics? And why does all the good stuff come on after 10? Arg. Despite the sleep deprivation, I am still absolutely glued to my television. I know that Michael Phelps already has fifty bazillion medals, but I can't help but watch him win AGAIN! I guess it's just waiting for that medal ceremony....the best part! I think the dogs are getting tired of the very close races because I end up squeezing and squishing them whilst screaming in my apartment late at night. Hopefully, this gets my neighbors back for the late night (usually around 11:30pm) vacuuming.

Remember my jelly legs from 2 weeks ago? Well, even with upping my thiamin intake, they haven't gone away. I went back to the doctor today. I had more labs drawn to check my vitamin levels, a sono to rule out blood clots, and a lot of mashing about on the numb legs. Hopefully, the answer lies in the vitamin levels. We'll see next week.

On the packing front...not much is different. I've packed most of the kitchen, except for the food, plates, and utensils. I've left one pot and a roasting pan out for meals. For those who like to pack all at the last minute, this tedious packing chore must seem long and drawn out. Believe me, if I don't start early, I'll end up with 40 boxes of crap thrown in. Not pleasant.

Work is work. I'm alone this week (yes, AGAIN!) and so far, it hasn't been too bad. I don't think my clinic is too busy tomorrow, which is always nice. It's back to two doctors which allows clinic to move faster. I've got some great kids coming in tomorrow, which makes me happy! :)

It's so lovely outside! It's not hot and there's a lovely breeze! I'm sure that tomorrow it will be back to 230 degrees, but for now, the puppies and I are enjoying the lovely open patio door. Hope your weather is fabulous like ours is!

Thursday, August 07, 2008


I'm such a retard! As if I didn't have enough issues going on right now, I added a new one! :) Today, I went to Petco to buy the puppies some treats. I was looking around for a air tight container to put the treats in (more on this later!). A random employee was helping me find them. We walked around the corner, and I proceeded to trip right over the edge of the display! I landed on my knees, then on my face! If you've ever been around me during one of my clumsy moments, I normally laugh right afterwards because I feel so stupid! I got up (not easily because of the continued numb legs!) and examined myself for injuries. I have a horridly scraped up wrist (still have no idea how that happened!), bruised knees, a pulled calf muscle, and I ripped holes in the knees of my scrubs! I'm such an idiot! I'm sure I'll feel more sore tomorrow, but today the only thing that's sore is my pride! Thankfully, I don't have much of that! :)

The whole reason for the trip to Petco started with bugs. I have these horrid black flying bugs in my apartment. For weeks, I've been trying many things to get rid of them. I killed off all my plants, cleaned withing an inch of my life, and had the apartment complex spray for bugs. The bugs persist. Yesterday, when I was putting the puppies in their crate for the day, I noticed that the treat jar was crawling. There were these stupid black fly things all in the treats, eating them and no doubt reproducing inside the jar! EW! I threw the whole thing out, and have high hopes that the bugs will slowly die off. They are driving me crazy! Oliver likes them...he chases them and eats them. So, between the constant bug spraying and Oliver eating them, perhaps they'll be gone soon.

The packing continues. I've got a lot of boxes done so far, but haven't even started the kitchen yet. I normally spend my weekend packing and watching Food Network. This will most likely happen again...except for the next three weeks, I'll be addicted to the OLYMPICS! Yes, I admit it. I'm an Olympic addict...or junkie...whichever terminology you prefer. I cry at every touching moment and you can bet I'll be weeping anytime the national anthem is played. I'm exceptionally patriotic...if you hadn'd figured that out by my dog's name!!!

Okay. Enough for tonight. I'm on call this weekend and am alone in the office all next week, so pray for quiet times. I'm never one to wish kids didn't get hearts, but I'd love it if they came in an organized fashion and not all at once!

Good night!

Monday, August 04, 2008

How many have you read?

The story is that apparently the National Endowment for the Arts estimates that the average adult has only read six of these books. Here are the markup guidelines:

1) Look at the list and bold those you have read.
2) Italicize those you intend to read.
3) Mark in red the books you LOVE. - I’m skipping this step.
4) Reprint this list in your blog

1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6 The Bible
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell

9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14. The Complete Works of Shakespeare (I've read a LOT, but not all!)
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulks
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19 The Time Traveller’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald

23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame

31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
34 Emma - Jane Austen

35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis - This sure seems like a duplicate to me!
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne

41 Animal Farm - George Orwell
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44 A Prayer for Owen Meany - John Irving
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan

51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52 Dune - Frank Herbert -
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez

61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding
69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie -
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville

71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens

72 Dracula - Bram Stoker
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray

80 Possession - AS Byatt

81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87 Charlotte’s Web - EB White
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle

90 The Faraway Tree Collection

91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl

100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo

WOW! I've read a lot of things! Guess I shouldn't be too surprised....seeing as I have an ENGLISH degree! :) I think I counted 40...but there are so many wonderful books still on them! I still can't believe there's a Jane Austen Book I haven't read. Guess I'll be reading that one after I finish the giant PILE I have sitting in boxes. I do love to read, but I go through phases. If I am stressed at work, for some reason reading does NOT relax me! :)

Other than this really cool list of books, I have hit another milestone in my weight loss! I weighed in today and I've lost a total of EIGHTY pounds! WOWSERS! Still pretty amazing.

Friday, August 01, 2008

Oh, vegetable delight!

Starting about Tuesday night, all I have wanted to eat is vegetables! I started out with a Boston Market side trio...mostly because I didn't have time to get good produce. I don't consider Walmart good produce...most Walmarts anyways! I ate that for two dinners and two lunches! Wednesday night, I bought some green beans to steam. I made those yesterday and had them for dinner last night and lunch today. Today, I went to the produce wonderland! It's basically an indoor farmers market with a bunch of organic herbs, vitamins, and groceries thrown in. Their produce is always reasonably priced, so I got a lot! :) I got celery, new potatoes, fresh dill, jicama, spinach, black eyed peas, cremini mushrooms, eggplant, squash, and onions! YUMMY! I probably left something out, but you get the idea. I just had 1/4 a jicama with a little bit of salt and lemon pepper. Again, YUMMY! I have no idea what has inspired this phase of mine, but I hope it lasts. It's delicious! :)

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Still crabby, but I have answers!

Okay, so the crabbiness still is present. Nothing I did today was going to take away that. BUT, I did get some answers from the doctor. So, I have "dry beriberi", which is a disorder people get from nutritional deficiencies of Vitamin B-1 or thiamine. According to Wikipedia (my favorite website!)....

"Its symptoms include weight loss, emotional disturbances, impaired sensory perception (Wernicke's encephalopathy), weakness and pain in the limbs, and periods of irregular heart rate."

Well, I certainly have emotional disturbances! :) The treatment is simple...take lots of B-1 and eat legumes, green veggies, and fruit!

Here's the frustrating thing about all of this. Since I got my GB, I have had all of the RARE complications. The chance of getting a stricture is 4%. But of course, I had one. The chance of needing your gallbladder out after GB is about 5%...which we all know how that one ended. Beriberi is also a rare complication. I am such a freak! Let's just see what other fabulously exciting complications are around the corner. I hope NONE!!!!

Little Miss Crabbypatty

WOW. Am I crabby today or WHAT?

I've had this weird leg pain ever since I left the hospital. It's almost like they are numb. Very odd. Anyways, I've been taking just a snippet of pain meds to help them relax before I go to sleep. Yesterday, I ran out. Therefore, I had a wee inkling that this would lead to no sleep. I was SO SO right. I tossed and turned for a good five hours before getting absolutely frustrated and taking a benadryl (which I despise!).

The moral of this story is that I'm in the worst possible mood today. I'm trying to be a bright and happy spirit, but it's not doing a bit of good. I have a doctor's appointment today so maybe there will be some insight shed on my dilemma. Perhaps it's vitamins? There's no telling. Anyways, I'm certain I will get to run all over Baylor getting labs and other asundry things before I go back to work and have to bite my tongue to not hurt my co-worker who has me on call until the end of time. Wasn't that the longest sentence? :) See, I still have somewhat of a sense of humor...

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Completely random

Most of my posts actually have some meaning...but not this one. It's just that kinda day. Just thought I'd share some random tidbits with you.

1. I hate folding laundry. I guess most people hate folding it, so that's not the weird part. The weird part is that I love to DO laundry! I love getting every single solitary piece of dirty clothes/towels in my house and throwing it into the washer...I just can't transfer that love to folding. Ick.

2. I'm a terrible box packer. Today, I've packed four boxes that were a completely random mix of stuff. I don't label either. That should be fun for me when I'm attempting to unpack.

3. I'm addicted to water! This is the weirdest thing I've ever had to admit! I used to despise it...never EVER drank it. All I drank was Diet Dr Pepper or Diet Coke. I haven't had either of those things for over three months and I don't miss them at all! I'm also addicted to saltines, but that's a whole different conversation.

4. I despise cooking, but can't get enough of the Food Network. If I could have my five top channels, it would be ABC, NBC, CW, Bravo, and Food Network. Right now, I'm watching a marathon of Next Food Networt Star. Sometimes I wish I could cook. I have so much beautiful kitchen stuff, but most of it just sits there for "someday".

Well, my dryer buzzer is going off. I guess it's time to move the clothes to a chair and put the stuff from the washer in. Hooray for clean clothes! Boo to folding! Anyone like to fold?

Monday, July 21, 2008

In awe

WOWSERS. I now have crossed the halfway mark in my weight loss...and it's only been three months! I'll admit, I haven't had the smoothest journey, but I wasn't expecting it to be easy. After being puny and sick for so long, it's nice to be able to eat like I'm supposed to.

I crossed over one of my first goals this week. I've been waiting to see my weight go below 100kg, which it did today! My second goal is to see my weight go below 200lbs, something I haven't seen since I put on that "freshman 15" or in my case, the freshmen 30. I am SO SO close! WOW! Still can't believe that one.

Thanks for continuing to watch my journey and encourage me. It means more to me than you will ever know.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

I despise packing.

It's been a busy week! Wait, aren't they all? I don't know why I'm surprised when each week seems busier than the last. Ah well, I guess it's good that I only have Liberty and Oliver to worry about at home. I can't imaging having to go home to a family and function after one of my very frequent crazy days!

I signed my lease for my new apartment this week! I will get my keys on August 25th, but won't actually move until the 30th. Hopefully that week I will be able to take over some small things that I'm capable of carrying...since I'm strictly forbidden from lifting anything over 20lbs for awhile. Stupid surgery. Now I've started the packing drama. Jennifer and Michael gave me an entire mess of boxes, which saved me from having to buy them. I am dragging them up the stairs, a few at a time. It's quite a sight...me, two dogs, and boxes. I'm trying to pack the non-essential things so I get those things out of the way. My living/dining rooms are now completely de-decorated. I've got a bookcase in the bedroom to hopefully do tonight, but that might not happen.

This week, I'm alone at work. My counterpart is "on vacation", which is mostly delightful. At least I won't have to deal with her drama! I end up being busier, but at least things are usually a bit calmer because I don't freak out at the little stuff like she does. She already gave me an earful of drama before she left on Friday, so I've had my fill for awhile!

Well, I guess I should go pack that bookcase. Or eat dinner. Hmm....which to pick?

Monday, July 14, 2008

Work and other exciting news

I went back to work today. It was thankfully uneventful, but still a wee bit busy. I didn't get a chance to sit as much as I wanted, but hopefully I will tomorrow. We don't have any clinic kids so once I make my rounds, I should be good to sit.

Today, I left work a little bit early and fell asleep almost the instant I sat on the couch. I slept for about an hour and a half, missed 5 phone calls, but woke up rested and feeling better. I really do feel good, I just tire out extremely easily!

SO, for the big news...I'm moving! For those of you who know me well, your next words would probably be "again?" I've actually been at the same place for 2 years now, but am realizing a few things. First of all, gas is ridiculous and I can't afford to live this far away from my job, especially since I'm going to work 5 days a week (when I moved here, I was only working 3 days a week). Second, the road I have to take to work is a toll road. I spend over $80.00 in tolls a month, which is ridiculous! Third, when I moved to this apartment, I was able to miss the traffic going to and from work. Now I am embroiled in it on a daily basis. It takes me 30 minutes to get to work (when it used to take 20!) and normally between 45 min to an hour to get home (again, used to be 20!). I get completely stressed out and frustrated on a daily basis. Considering I already have a stressful job, I don't need to add to it.

SO, I am moving within 5 minutes of my job! This will save me so much time and headache! The rent's higher, but considering the gas/tolls I will save, it won't really make a difference. I will probably actually save money. I'll be able to come home while waiting for a transplant instead of just having to sit at the hospital knowing that Liberty and Oliver are no doubt crossing their little legs and needing to potty. I'm really excited bout this! My move date is the end of August...so keep my stress level in your prayers. I don't really like moving, but am anxiously awaiting a change.

Okay, I'm sleepy. I'm going to bed now. Have a wonderful day tomorrow!

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Surviving at home

I've been home since about 9:30 on Monday night. Thank goodness for my own bed! I will say it hasn't been a very fun recovery, but when is surgery recovery fun? :) My biggest complaint is NOT my surgical wounds or my sore abdomen, but has been my jelly like legs! I was in the hospital, not moving around or getting any nutrition for a week before my surgery. All my happy leg muscles atrophied because there was a bigger need for my body to kind of "feed" off itself to get the nutrition it was lacking. Now I am paying the price for that! My pitiful legs are all tingly and don't wish to behave as they should. At least it's taking my mind off the fact that I had abdominal surgery, which is one of the more painful surgeries! :)

I've been spending the week walking around the apartment, carefully attempting to go up and down the stairs to take Liberty outside, and doing my own physical therapy to get my legs back into tip top shape before I have to go back to work. Thankfully, I had already asked for this week off to go to camp, so I am not taking off any unexpected time. It has been so amazing to see how much better I can eat now that the stinky gall bladder is gone! I was so concerned before the surgery that I would have the GB out and it would not be the reason for the constant nausea and vomiting! Thank GOODNESS that was not the case! I have been able to eat exactly what I should be eating after a gastric bypass WITHOUT NAUSEA! Hooray! I've already decided I'm never going to make it during the nauseating 1st trimester of pregnancy...or maybe I'll do really great now that I've endured a month of it!

Liberty has been quite clingy since I got home, which is understandable after not seeing me for 10 days. She always seems to be touching me in some fashion, either curled up next to me or sitting by me. I don't really mind, seeing as one of my mental breakdowns in the hospital involved not having her as a comforting factor next to me.

Anyways, that's pretty much all that's going on here. Eating. Sleeping. Exercising. :)

Monday, July 07, 2008


Well, I did have my gall bladder out on Saturday morning. I went in about 8AM, was done around 9:30AM, and finally got out of recovery to my new room around 6PM. Isn't that ridiculous? I had many lovely visitors in the recovery room, in higher volumes than normal because there really were only 2 other people in there! It was so empty! The BEST part of the recovery room (well, except for the morphine pain pump!) was that I had the very same sweet nurse as when I had my bypass surgery in April! I had loved her so much I named my new little stomach i.e. my "pouch" after her. Her name is Betty, and she's Baylor's BEST PACU nurse! I really didn't hurt or feel anything because she was right there, meds in hand, to make me comfortable. She remembered me too!

I spent Saturday night trying to stay pain controlled. Sunday, I was all set to go home when the resident came in and said that my liver function labs were wacky and I needed to stay another day for monitoring. BLECH! SO, I stayed and was bored for another day...very thankful that Tammy was in town to entertain me. I did NOT sleep well last night, for unknown reasons. Today, my labs are still elevated, but they are improved. The resident is ready to send me home, but just has to get clearance from the attending.

I'm on a different floor than I started the week on, but it's been okay. I've had great nurses, great techs and everyone has been really nice,

All in all, with the exception of one mean nurse last week and a bunch of blown IV's, this experience at Baylor has been okay. After the dry heaving stopped, it still wasn't enjoyable, but the nurses made the time go faster. I will certainly recommend this hospital to anyone who asks@

Friday, July 04, 2008

More surgery!

Tomorrow morning, I will be having my gall bladder out. After many tests and procedures, my surgeon thinks this is the best option to rid me of the nausea.

I got a PICC line today, much to my happiness! Now they can draw labs from it, have an absolutely perfect place for IV fluids, and NO MORE STICKS! Hooray! :)

Hopefully, I'll be able to get my gall bladder out, control the nausea, and be home in a few days. I'm sure Liberty misses me, even though she's having a wonderous time with Sam and Max.

Have a wonderful 4th of July!

Thursday, July 03, 2008

Minor improvement

Well, the good news is that I am no longer dry heaving! My stomach has decided it would rather no contort every hour or so. I am still extremely nauseated with anything I put in my mouth, but at least it stays down. I've seen a whole army of doctors, each with a theory as to the reason...

1. Surgery-my surgeon said there is "sludge" in my gallbladder. This can sometimes cause people a big enough problem with nausea and it would have to be removed. The thing I LOVE about my surgeon is that he's not anxious to take out right now. He'd rather try other things. I'm also having a lot of dizziness, which could indicate a inner ear infection. I'm on 2 meds for that. I'm also blowing IV sites left and right...not something good for someone who is completely dependent on IV fluids for hydration. I'm supposed to be getting a PICC line tonight or early tomorrow. This will allow me to have an IV that won't go bad and can have blood drawn from it. He also wants to start some "fats" or lipids, to help my energy level.

2. GI-The gastroenterologist thinks I might have some "delayed motility" which basically means my stomach doesn't empty as fast as it should. It wouldn't seem to make sense that I could still be throwing up with absolutely nothing in my stomach, but then again, I swallow spit all day long and that's what is coming up. He started me on a medication that would help my stomach empty faster. Can't tell if it's working or not.

3. Neurology-so starting about Saturday, I started having double vision. THis unnerved my surgeon, so he wanted me to have an MRI and a neurology consult. The neurologist came in today and said that I probably have a kinking of my 4th cranial nerve from all the dry heaving. He said he's seen that a lot and it's the explanation that makes the most sense.

So, all of these explanations are jumbled together and I don't even know what to make of it all anymore. I'm REALLY tired of being in this bed, but I know I wouldn't make at home without being able to drink. So, I'll just slowly work on advancing my food...and one day, I might be able to go home.

I've had lots of wonderful visitors this week and I am SO thankful. It's very VERY disheartening to be in this position, so THANK YOU to all who have come by, those who have called, and those who have prayed for me. I hope I am on the road to healing..

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

Please pray....

I am miserable. I've been here for three long days with no answers. I keep throwing up and no one seems to have one teensie weensie clue as to what is wrong. I'm getting very VERY disheartened and don't have the energy to fight anymore. I haven't had real food since Thursday.

Please keep me in your prayers.

Sunday, June 29, 2008

Back into Baylor again....

Thank goodness for free wireless! It's nice that between the puking and the multitudes of nasty tests my doctor has put me through, I can check my email! :) If you haven't figured it out already, I got re-admitted to the hospital late last night for not being able to stop throwing up. I had to go in through the ER this time, and waited about 10 hours for a bed in the hospital. So far, with the exception of one floor nurse, all my nurses and staff have been wonderful. I'm getting lots of fluid and anti-nausea meds. I've had a abdominal sono and a cat scan, both of which were normal. My doctor has me scheduled for an upper GI tomorrow which will allow them to see how the contrast goes through my GI tract. Hopefully, it will give them some answers as to why I can't eat normally.

I did get the chance (between the puking) to go see Spamalot with Michael and Jennifer yesterday. It was HILARIOUS! I wish I would have felt better so I could have enjoyed it more, but it was still a great show.

So now, I'm tied to a bed here at Baylor, looking fabulous with my hospital gown, capri pant pajama bottoms, anti-blood clot hose, footy socks, and wild hair. I'm quite the sight. I'm hoping my IV stays good so I don't have to get stuck half a billion times like last time.

Thanks for checking in. I have my cell if you want to contact me while I'm here.

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Hooray for deals!

I just found 3 pairs of capri pants at Walmart for $9 each! Fabulous! That will absolutely help my need to have camp clothes. Now, I just need to find some shirts...
Wow! Was last week CRAZY or what? Work seemed to explode with more and more kids needing to be evaluated for transplant, kids having complications, but ironically (and kinda thankfully), no one was transplanted! It was BUSY! I was so happy to have Friday come around and have the weekend start! Shockingly, it's been a relatively quiet weekend, although that can change at the drop of a hat.

I've felt pretty good this weekend. I've gotten all my liquids in, and have even eaten more than one meal a day! I win! I'm still working SO hard on eating the things that I know my body wants...like protein. I'm having to get over some humps that I had right before my stricture. I got REALLY burned out on lunch meat and cheese, even though those are great protein sources. I need to get back to where I want to eat those things because right now, the thought of them makes me dry heave. It's completely psychological, so any suggestions on how to overcome that would be helpful!

In two weeks, I'll be going to camp! Oh yes, you DID read that right! I'm going to be a camp nurse at my church's brand new camp in Hawkins. I'm so excited! I'm a tad nervous at the thought of being outside and having to maintain REALLY good hydration, but I'm hoping by that point, I'll be fine! :) It should be so much fun...and now I just need to get prepared! I don't really have any clothes that fit, and that might just be a good thing to have. I'll have to go to Goodwill because I do NOT want to go buying new clothes for a week and then I'll be shrinking on out of them. Thankfully, the nurse's station does have a washer/dryer, so perhaps I'll be able to recycle some of my clothes and not have to find so many!

Life just does not get any more exciting than that...or at least I hope not! I need some calm! :)

Monday, June 16, 2008

Advancing slowly

My diet of choice this week has been the good, old, reliable clear liquid. I learned about 24 hours after my stricture dilation that clears were about the only thing my sensitive stomach was going to handle right then. I've mostly kept to that and have only really ventured out in my choices the last few days.

I have discovered that my nausea/vomiting really only likes to come in the morning. It's like I'm pregnant. I've learned to take nausea medication when I get up, and about 75% of the time, I can ward off the episodes. Some days, I'm not so lucky. If you see me in the morning and I look a little off, it's probably one of those bad mornings!

Other than the puking, I'm doing pretty well. I'm trying to get back to the part of my diet where I can eat the majority of my protein in food. I go back to the doctor in 2 weeks...hopefully by then I will have accomplished something! My energy levels are good, but usually not until the afternoons! I've lost a total of 53lbs in my 8 weeks, which I think is pretty good. I'm hoping that this isn't too fast. I don't want to waste away faster than I should. That doesn't seem healthy at all!

I am STILL off call, which thrills me to no end. I don't go back on call until this weekend, when I go on with my favorite surgeon who won't wake me up with every single offer. I actually don't have any plans this weekend, which usually means I'll be stuck transplanting in the OR. That's usually how it goes. And with SEVEN kids waiting, it's only a matter of time.

Liberty and Oliver have been so funny the last few days! Yesterday, I spilled some dog food in the laundry basket while I was refilling the food containers. The dogs found it necessary to drag the laundry basket across the room, almost removing a shirt through the holes. They were determined to get those four pieces out! Crazies.

Well, it's getting late and I do have to be up in the morning...blast it all. I have NEVER been a snooze girl and I'm getting SO bad about it. My snooze is only three minutes...so is it really worth it? Most likely no.